what I am most afraid of is that those who are doing all this are Muslims, the extremist. most probably they're going to say it's jihad. a lot of ppl misuse jihad and this is saddening. I really pray and hope that it ain't the Malays who are conspiring all these attacks and what such. I mean, if it is the muslims, how are my family and friends going to accept my conversion? sometimes, ----no. not sometimes. always, people misunderstand and have negative perspectives on Islam religion due to the Muslims who do not abide by the hukum2 Islam. I am really sad that there are Muslims out there who can be so carefree despite knowing the kind of behaviour and lifestyle they should lead. it is because of that fraction of people that Islam, which is in truth a very good religion, is looked down upon. I know this because I was once there. Where I am today is all thanks to Him for giving me the hidayah, but not everyone is as fortunate to get the LIGHT from HIM. now, it is going to be harder for me to tell my family of my situation whatmore with the things occurring in Malaysia.
I am most upset right now.
yaAllah yaTuhanku, tolonglah tunjukkan hidayah kepada yang memerlukannya yaAllah. bukalah mata mereka supaya mereka sedar akan siapa diri mereka, sedar bahawa mereka merupakan umat Islam yang mempunyai tanggungjawab sebagai seorang Muslim. Amin.