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feeling: stressful, confused, angry, sad, disappointed, tired, exhausted

what's in my head right now: why am i not getting it my way? feels like sh*t.

pardon my bad language. I'm frustrated and I know it's wrong to feel so. I am supposed to be grateful for everything. Sepatutnya, aku bersyukur dengan segala kejadian and accept it as there is always hikmah di sebalik setiap perkara.

I'm sorry God. I know I may not get what I wish for, but u r providing me w everything that I need.

I asked for strength,
and He gave me difficulties to make me strong.

I asked for wisdom,
and He gave me problems to solve.

I asked for courage,
and He gave me obstacles to overcome.

I asked for love,
and He gave me troubled people to help.

I asked for favours,
and He gave me opportunities.

"Maybe I received nothing I wanted,
But I received everything I needed"

walhamdulillah.


cheers,~

Daily post~

I've been watching korean dramas daily for the past few weeks, and I have to admit that the koreans are getting so damn good with their dramas~! lol, I'm hooked to almost every new drama that is aired on KBS WORLD such as, the partner, the slingshot, the accidental couple, first love, he who can't marry, etc. they're just plain great~! haha. Plus, what makes it more admirable is how the koreans are capable to come up with such beautiful, full of meaning, and meticulously arranged dialogues~! in short, the scripts are defnitely well written~!!! my hats off the scriptwriters for being so creative and genuine~! XDXD

i'll post some dialogues in the next post~! till then~!

cheers,~ ;D

Life and its obstacles~

It's true that everyone are bound to meet the little speedbumps as you live your life. But then again, never get discouraged by these as they are just a fraction of what others have to go through. Each time you feel unlucky and unfortunate, this is when you should start thinking about those who are way less fortunate than you. It's a great way of getting yourself back on your feet. I can guarantee you; but if you compare with those who are lavished with such luxuries that you crave for, you would head for a downfall. Never take for granted as some depression may be of a humongous one which could drive you mad and derail you from your original aim of your existence. Always ensure that your head is held high, be proud and contented with what you are and what you have. As for me, being privileged with most of the things I desire in life, I am definitely most grateful. If there's anything that bothers me, be it emotionally or physically, I would turn unto Him. I will pray for His guidance and for the strength that I need. He is capable of providing me with everything as He is the Almighty. As it is normally phrased as (Maha Penguasa). Tuhan juga Maha Pemberi, Maha Penyayang kepada insan2 yang beriman kepadaNya.

all praise to Him.

cheers,~

can anyone understand me?

will people ever understand me properly and thoroughly? Do you think that I decide this for fun or for attention? Do you think this decision is going to destroy my future? Honestly, I have done some thinking on this matter. I have contemplated and meditated on it as well. It may seem abrupt to you, but IT IS NOT! It's just that you never realised about it till recently; that's why you feel it's sudden and drastic.

But please fear not that my priorities will go astray. It will definitely not go haywire as I am who I am. I always know how to set my priorities right, and to follow them! I will do my best with my best efforts, with all my heart, capabilities and strength; I will try to achieve for the best. This is how I am: I am a girl who feels that studies is indeed really imperative in my life~! Thus, please do not worry.

Please understand me. That's all I ask for. Please...

LoVe & Trains~! XD

How are love and trains alike? Haha, u readers must be thinking, "what is this girl with her comparison between love and trains, coffees and etc." lol, I won't blame you; I would think the same if I were you~! ;)

anyway, so, what can you think of? If you ever have any other ideas besides mine, please do top up by commenting or anything~! I would like to know more too. hehe.

let's see, first of all, both can stray from their paths. right right? if u get what I mean that is. lol

secondly, both have beginnings and goodbyes. yes, this is the sad part. haish.. :( *emo* hahaha XD

ok la.. dont wanna bore you guys w my wild thoughts. huahua ROFL~!

cheers,~

Coffee & LoVe~

I'm sure there are plenty of coffee lovers out there. lol

So, have u ever thought what Coffee & LoVe have in common?

Read on to find out more:

They're both sweet and bitter; and there are many varieties.

It's hard to switch once you get used to a certain flavour; the flavour changes depending on the temperature, but it's best hot.

It's addictive. Both love and coffee are hard to give up.

You start when you're grown up.

On a rainy day, you crave it more.

The mood has a big effect on it too.

Hmm. that's all I can think of for now. hehe XD

note: omg. sorry. there's no flow at all in this post. hehe. the idea is like so abrupt. sorry. my bad.

cheers,~

my thoughts~

Every being is made the same, only with different features; a unique feature of his own.

Everyone's hearts are equal;
You can love anybody;
There are no such thing as inequalities;
ALL LOVE are equal, it's how you treat it that makes it a whole new, beautiful experience, different from others'.

At times, we fear that we may be a burden to others;
But that's why we need each other more;
That's how we comfort each other;
That's how we bring meaning to each other;
That's how you bring meaning into your life, fulfilling the purpose of your existence*.

*everyone has their own purpose of being here on Earth. It is your choice to fulfill your purpose with all your heart, body, mind, and soul; With the utmost sincerity you can offer, with all your might, strength and ability.

Only recently I have figured my purpose of existence. But for now, I shall veil it. It is between me and Him. And that is all that matters to me. As long as He knows that I am coming towards His light, that is all that matters to me.

A Beautiful Phrase --> Passion is what breeds determination, discipline, and desire for achievement; and helps one to see beyond the shallow surface of life; that has so much to offer to those who seek it.

cheers,~

daily post~

"sebaik-baik wanita ialah yang tidak memandang dan dipandang"

"Allah telah menjanjikan perempuan yang baik itu untuk lelaki yang baik"

Untuk yang bergelar muslimah:

semoga Hijab menjadi Pakaianmu;

semoga Kesucian menjadi Amalanmu;

semoga Kesopanan menjadi Perhiasanmu;

semoga Syurga menjadi Tempatmu.

"Aku pasti berendam airmata darah andainya engkau menyerahkan seluruh cintamu padaku. Bukan itu yang aku impikan. Cukuplah kau mencintai Allah dengan sepenuh hatimu. Kerana dengan mencintai Allah kau akan mencintaiku kerana-Nya. Cinta itu lebih abadi dari cinta insan biasa. Moga cinta itu juga yang akan mempertemukan kita kembali di Syurga.

Aku juga tidak ingin dilimpahi kemewahan dunia. Cukuplah dengan kesenangan yang telah diberikan ibubapaku dulu. Apa guna kau menimbun harta untuk kemudahanku sekiranya harta itu membuatkan kau lupa pada tanggungjawabmu terhadap agamamu. Aku tidak akan sekali-kali bahagia melihatmu begitu. Biarlah kita hidup di bawah jaminan Allah sepenuhnya. Itu lebih bermakna bagiku." -VLL-

"A WOMAN'S HEART SHOULD BE SO LOST IN GOD THAT A MAN NEEDS TO SEEK HIM IN ORDER TO FIND HER"

cheers,~

Ampang Park

that's where I stopped this afternoon, with the intention of making my way to Menara Tan & Tan Building as fast as I could, but to no avail! How unfortunate. But then again, I shouldn't complain. Yes, I should not.

So, let me trace what happened right from the moment I got off the train. I got out and saw the guy-in-charge by the counter, asked him where this building is and he told me to turn right after I get out of the station. And of course I did the obvious and followed his instructions, but whoa! after walking in the right direction for a while, I noticed I was heading to an area where there's no tall buildings in sight. So, I turned around and walked back to where I was, looking around to locate the tall buildings around that vicinity. Ahah! I saw it! Thus, I walked in that direction and since I wasn't a 100% sure, I decided to ask for directions and this is where everything went wrong! so wrong! I'm even in disbelief right now, thinking of how some people could not admit and just say "I don't know." Instead, their pride had led me to get lost and I actually walked round and round the same place without getting to HCC! ughhhhhhh.. How devastated and disappointed I was when I figured that I was indeed lost! SESAT! yes, I could figure that much out. thank you. *eyes rolling*

anyway, when I actually found someone who really did know where it is, I was glad and heaved a sigh of relief. pheww. but you will not believe that I only found that person when I was right across the place where I came from originally i.e. the ampark park station! astaghfirullah al azim! I could not believe my eyes when she pointed towards that direction. Plus, she told me that I should take a cab cos it's far by foot. Anyway, you know me, a girl who prefers to walk as long as she is capable of it, but at that moment in time, I was on the verge of getting a cab since I was already so exhausted and felt like I was dehydrated as well, not to forget how sweaty+sticky I was due to the scorching heat & dust from the vehicles! thanks a lot! but lucky me, I didn't managed to stop any taxi. hehe. So, I ended up walking all the way there again!

All in all, I think I walked like 2-3 km, passing the same place again and again. haha. now that I think about it, I'm LOL-ing at it! XDXD But you have no idea how relieved I was when the building was in sight! haha. and the first thing that struck me at the sight of the building was "omg, so THAT IS MENARA TAN & TAN? so short!!!!!!!!!!" It's no wonder I could not locate it. I was on the wrong track the whole time, from the very beginning! I was looking for tall buildings! ughh. sad.

but I am grateful, and looking on the bright side, it was a good exercise for me. hiahia XDXD I am sure this was the reason I was led to "get lost" but made it to HCC in time. ngee~~ ><"

walhamdulillah, all praise to Allah ;D this is why they say - di sebalik setiap kejadian, mesti ade hikmahnye. *nodding head* ^_^

cheers,~

thank goodness~~

YES! I feel so fortunate that I have received my medical form today. I was afraid I might not get it till next week and that would mean I am not able to do my med check-up in time.

anyway, alhamdulillah.. hehe.. ;)

I'm off to pick my sis from school now, and then head to HCC to collect my med form: by lrt of course! i don't think I am able to drive in that kinda traffic. haha XDXD


cheers,~

how beautiful this is... can u feel it?

"ya ALLAH jika aku jatuh cinta, cintakan lah aku pada seseorang yang melabuhkan cintanya padaMu agar bertambah kekuatanku untuk mencintaiMu" -syairah-

after reading this, I was so touched, indeed~!! those are amazing words; full of meaning and the deepest sincerity is veiled through them. I wish to imply that on me as well. then, i strongly believe all will be well and blessed~!

Amin.

cheers,~

another thing

I went to pick up my sister from school earlier in the afternoon. On the way there, I had to pass the BSC steep hill. Oh my goodness, I was like sweating that time when my car suddenly "mati enjin"! of course the first thing I did was pull the hand brake. haha. and then, I did the normal routine to get a vehicle to move while on the hill, but yet again, my car's engine stopped! I could not believe it! people started honking and of course I begin to panic, but I had to get moving and so I did it again; thank God it worked on the second attempt. haha. this is the problem with manual cars.

However, I'm sure I will improve the more I'm on the road :D

my trip to sunway and back home was fine too; except at the toll plaza. hehe.

cheers,~

FACEBOOK BEING BOGGED

to prevent my fb account from being crowded with tom, dick, and harry; I had just done a run through on my list of friends in fb. Well, I managed to delete bout 6 peeps so far - i'm sorry i had to, but it really doesn't mean anything to have someone whom I hardly keep in touch with; since my purpose of fb is to expand my network of friends whom I in fact, DO kit with. Yeah.

I will do a run through on my list of friends in fb periodically. Hopefully I have the free time. I definitely have to control on who's in and who's out. hehe XDXD

Some of my friends are in BTN camp now. lucky them. They'd be done with it by the end of the week. As for me, I've to go for it next week i.e. 13th to 17th of july. anyone been to BTN? care to chip in some tips for me? lol :P

cheers,~

YTN Reorientation~!!

awesome~ness!! that's the word for it~! Well, in the previous post, I wrote, "i hope i'll enjoy this camp." And true enough, I did enjoy the camp. almost every bit of it; especially at El-Azzhar Camp in Morib, Klang~! I loved the outdoors except the childish games; but I did enjoy the water activities. hehe XD

Let's see, another thing I enjoyed about this camp was the people I met. I definitely made new friends; and a few very good ones too - in such a short period of time~! ;) For this, I am on cloud nine! I am also very grateful to be given the opportunity to meet such nice beings. God bless them.

Not only that, I had new experiences as well such as listening to tazkirah - it's quite cool. lol. It was held in the surau and at least by attending it, I was not left to be alone: as it would surely be boring to be on your own. hehe. So, I followed my senior for almost every tazkirah session. haha :D

The beautiful souls I met -->

Kak Naili : Beautiful, both at heart and looks :D very nice and cute personality, patient, helpful, sharing and caring. A person who really practise what she preaches. one of the very good muslim girls, which are hard to find these days ;P she has taught me so much and has given me such a beautiful and sacred gift. I will treasure it and use it well. kak naili's such a witty person too. she's like a little girl though she's married.hehe..Overall, she's an A++ in my list. important person whom I hope to establish a lasting friendship with.

Hanim Hashim: called anem. a very petite person. nice, simple, helpful, sharing and caring, informative as well as down-to-earth. she's very supportive and she's been a very good roomie for the whole week I was with her. she's always there for you. definitely another A++ person in my life. I wish to have a friendship with her that would last a lifetime. Can't wait to see her in McGill and we are planning to go to UK together to visit kak naili. owh yes, jundi wants to tag along too. hehe.

Syakirin: he's known as syak, the Genius. when asked, "who do you think are 1st class potentials here?" and I would hear his name after. he was my group leader in camp. a good listener and considerate. a very tolerant person and he is very practical and modest. whenever I look at him, I feel like smiling cos he has a very unique look. he's very thin and tall. he has a very unique personality to boot with. all in all, an A person. hehe XDXD hope to meet him in the future; hmm. maybe we might be working together? haha

Acap: Ashraff Sanusi is his given name. What got me to notice him was the fact that I was one of the three names he could remember. lol. then, at camp morib - the first night when we went for the mud walk, through the paya bakau slumps, acap helped me a lot~! lol.never have I felt that useless in an outdoor activity. anyway, let's focus on acap here. haha. he's a very nice person, witty as well as fun and cheerful~! ppl around him would be bright w his presence. I feel comfortable too. he's cool and playful as well. owh yes, not to forget, he's loud n noisy. hehe. in a good way of course. for this, he's an A+ person to me. lol. I think i've taken a liking to him. hahaha XDXD

Azraf: he's gonna be my uni mate pretty soon. he's very playful and childish, loud and talkative too. outgoing plus cheerful. but then, I heard, in uni, he's not like that at all. he's a completely different person when he's aorund ppl whom he isn't comfortable being with. well, that's what I heard anyway. not sure how true it is. I shall see for myself. he's unique too. haha. he's an A person. he might be of great help tome in the future.hehe *evil grin*

Farah: a very strong girl with a strong heart. she's tough and different from many girls. she loves to travel and she safes a lot. but it all goes to her travelling. lol. she's also a very interesting person w her own unique personality to couple with. I'm sure she'll succeed in all her endeavours. hehe. an A person. ill see ya in McGill too dear~! ;)

Dolah: abdullah zubair. he was my teammate. lol. he's funny. he listens well and he contributes great ideas as well. he is also a nice person who helps others who are in need. he also has a strong fighting spirit especially when he tries his best to win something for the team~! ;) An A guy~! ;D



Fitri: a very nice guy. also my sister's batchmate when they were in Kolej Yayasan Saad, Melaka. he helped me out with bowling. he's awesome at it n seeing me who is really terrible at it, he kindly offers to teach me how to bowl. lol. and it worked~! my second game was wayyy awesome than the first. lol. i'm also honoured to receive a card from him at the end of the camp. hehe. thanks fitri~! grade: A ;D

and the list goes on....

Here are some camp pics --

There are more on facebook. It's quite rare for me to post pictures on fb but I decided to put it up this time cos a few of my camp mates would like to grab the photos since they don't have it. So, do feel free to get them from my page. user name: -------

All in all, this is one of the best camp I've attended; it's mostly due to the people involved. The facilitators were great too! they were fun and cool. abang --- and abang ---. lol. i enjoyed their company. I am definitely looking forward to the reorientation camp in two years time with my juniors. hopefully, they are a bunch of cool peeps too. lol XDXD

cheers,~!